you say its fate.I say,no. And you say if its meant to be,its meant to be.

this aside.

life full of uncertainties and yes, the fragility. how unfair can it get. how bad life could treat you. once again, its LIFE. something not easy. Its not a trade. Give and take. Negotiate. and finally compromise.

he would just have to know that she loved him alot. well,maybe he loved her alot too.
you would be indeed remembered for everything.

i value everything now. more when i was with you. i have learned to priortise. Priortise,baby!
thanks for your presence last night and your absence forever. And you know, i havent regretted knowing you,anytime. you taught me, many things. now,i wouldnt risk my time anymore.

and Shankari. i always thank you for your long talks about anything and everything under the sun. all those heart-warming talks. and long walks too. your presence always. be it orange or blue, i would always be red ranger. Promise me you wouldnt mature anytime soon. Promise me you wouldnt stop, even when miracles happen.

I want to climb this very tall apple tree,in the countryside. you know what i mean. sit at the top. Not alone at all,of course. We would talk through the night. & please no, hot and humid weather. Nice breezy, day. Then we would eat apples, tell each other stories. We would held our hand, laughing our hearts out. Then we would help each other down the tree and if we cant get down, they we would gladly stay at the top. Maybe try to build a hammock, lie there and look at the sky. Omg, this really sounds so good. This has to be the best day in life ((((:

wish i could be every little thing,you wanted. all the time.
oh wait, i am.

forget it.

its so hard wanting someone to understand your side of the story and also react to it the way,you want it to be. however it may seem fake, someone would willingly do it only because for his/her responsibility and nothing more. you cant expect one to understand you always, though understanding is most likely to be the important thing.

these changes are so frightening but i know i'm still safe. my decision was right. i'm pretty certain its the right one. whether its perception or the cause of changes, i dont know and i dont care.

& geesh,i'm only fifteen.
ohwell nothings went into me, i'm still a happy child.

tamil Os are just 12 days away. & theres deepavali, mothsin's birthday, brother's homecoming.

& boys are just have to ability to make feel better, SOMETIME. no actually, all the time.

Okay,this post is dedicated to someone very dear to me.

here it goes.

it beens a good 2 year knowing you, a solid year being with you. Its been a helluva ride for each other.

You' have always been there.

To watch movies,being the real good company.

To talk about the most irrelavant thing.

To annoy me by being awfully late,whenever we meet.

To sing me the songs, that irks me.

To make me realise how essential soccer was to a boy.

To always tell me about his soccer games and floorball matches.

To tell me how we always wanted to play soccer with me.

How he urged me to run,to be fit .

To make fun of me all the time.

To tell me about his friends.

To tell me that I'm not big.

To tell me how pretty I am,even more than Vanessa Hudgens and his pretty idols. (wonder why)

To tickle my funny bone.

To bring me wherever I wanted to,though the distance dint seem to matter.

To buy me the prettiest pair of earrings.

To suprise me on New Year Eve.

To giving me the best birthday.

To tolerate all my ego,bitching,whining and whatnot.

To suprise me after school by waiting outside my school(:

To remind me how special I am.

To remind me,how horrible i am also.

To motivating me in daytona.

To singing me songs,all the times
To store all my pictures in your phone and be your wallpaper(:
To make me realise why a girl needs a boy more than girl, sometimes.

Yes,this is not enough to tell you everything. But i really thought you deserve a credit on global level,though how much you hate this. & I dont regret talking to you last september and on oct 5th and also screwing all my papers. I'm sorry if i have not treat you right,but i do care alot about you.We really had gone a long way & it makes all the better. so, THANK YOU LINGESH!

Have a great birthday. You are now fifteen,behave like one.