look whose back!

so far,its been so tiring and exhilarating.
the holidays! hoping from house to house. and also KL.

kl was goood. we were in a beach resort.
and the kids got to stay away from the parents. late night fun with the boys.
the supper, the hot showers, the balcony, the awesome sunrise, the bed-fight,1am bowling
hah,beach volleyball in the rain was the deal. we also played pool(:
& we had shopping! 4 days was dang goood.

then, i had the babygirls.
london bridge and ringa-roses moments. & i was pretty amused by the way they could move their body to both mtv and suntv. woah, i would have been tired. each time, there was a song, both the girls were infront of the tv. & how they tried teaching me some song, the elder learnt from school. hah,i thought i was seeing some beyonce and rihanna in the making. grandparents were entertained. a year more, till they hit home back at aussie.

pratically everyday i had something to do.
even it was like bringing the girls to playground,i so loved it.
there was shanky too. how she always called me to bugis and how i always turn up at bugis to meet her though i had fever. & not forgetting the katong laksa. the effing goood food,i swear.

i have lots of pictures to upload, let me consolidate them all.
christmas is coming. cant wait.
presents,food,turkey,fun,the christmas tree deco.

i would wear you like a locket around my throat.

tmr is the result day for psle candidates.

i'm effing scared for mothsin.

220 plus,i pray.

you say its fate.I say,no. And you say if its meant to be,its meant to be.

this aside.

life full of uncertainties and yes, the fragility. how unfair can it get. how bad life could treat you. once again, its LIFE. something not easy. Its not a trade. Give and take. Negotiate. and finally compromise.

he would just have to know that she loved him alot. well,maybe he loved her alot too.
you would be indeed remembered for everything.

i value everything now. more when i was with you. i have learned to priortise. Priortise,baby!
thanks for your presence last night and your absence forever. And you know, i havent regretted knowing you,anytime. you taught me, many things. now,i wouldnt risk my time anymore.

and Shankari. i always thank you for your long talks about anything and everything under the sun. all those heart-warming talks. and long walks too. your presence always. be it orange or blue, i would always be red ranger. Promise me you wouldnt mature anytime soon. Promise me you wouldnt stop, even when miracles happen.

I want to climb this very tall apple tree,in the countryside. you know what i mean. sit at the top. Not alone at all,of course. We would talk through the night. & please no, hot and humid weather. Nice breezy, day. Then we would eat apples, tell each other stories. We would held our hand, laughing our hearts out. Then we would help each other down the tree and if we cant get down, they we would gladly stay at the top. Maybe try to build a hammock, lie there and look at the sky. Omg, this really sounds so good. This has to be the best day in life ((((:

wish i could be every little thing,you wanted. all the time.
oh wait, i am.

forget it.

its so hard wanting someone to understand your side of the story and also react to it the way,you want it to be. however it may seem fake, someone would willingly do it only because for his/her responsibility and nothing more. you cant expect one to understand you always, though understanding is most likely to be the important thing.

these changes are so frightening but i know i'm still safe. my decision was right. i'm pretty certain its the right one. whether its perception or the cause of changes, i dont know and i dont care.

& geesh,i'm only fifteen.
ohwell nothings went into me, i'm still a happy child.

tamil Os are just 12 days away. & theres deepavali, mothsin's birthday, brother's homecoming.

& boys are just have to ability to make feel better, SOMETIME. no actually, all the time.

Okay,this post is dedicated to someone very dear to me.

here it goes.

it beens a good 2 year knowing you, a solid year being with you. Its been a helluva ride for each other.

You' have always been there.

To watch movies,being the real good company.

To talk about the most irrelavant thing.

To annoy me by being awfully late,whenever we meet.

To sing me the songs, that irks me.

To make me realise how essential soccer was to a boy.

To always tell me about his soccer games and floorball matches.

To tell me how we always wanted to play soccer with me.

How he urged me to run,to be fit .

To make fun of me all the time.

To tell me about his friends.

To tell me that I'm not big.

To tell me how pretty I am,even more than Vanessa Hudgens and his pretty idols. (wonder why)

To tickle my funny bone.

To bring me wherever I wanted to,though the distance dint seem to matter.

To buy me the prettiest pair of earrings.

To suprise me on New Year Eve.

To giving me the best birthday.

To tolerate all my ego,bitching,whining and whatnot.

To suprise me after school by waiting outside my school(:

To remind me how special I am.

To remind me,how horrible i am also.

To motivating me in daytona.

To singing me songs,all the times
To store all my pictures in your phone and be your wallpaper(:
To make me realise why a girl needs a boy more than girl, sometimes.

Yes,this is not enough to tell you everything. But i really thought you deserve a credit on global level,though how much you hate this. & I dont regret talking to you last september and on oct 5th and also screwing all my papers. I'm sorry if i have not treat you right,but i do care alot about you.We really had gone a long way & it makes all the better. so, THANK YOU LINGESH!

Have a great birthday. You are now fifteen,behave like one.

i miss the days

when we had time for each other.
we teased and confessed.
we could meet up everyday.
we played in the swing.
we tried convincing ourselves.
you made me laugh.
we sang together.
how you made all my fridays.

as the computer screams, artic monkey's when the scummy sun goes down and the shabby singh's commentary. here I am, after a goood shopping spree with none other than the father,the younger brother and my uncle. thus, a shopping with the boys.

as I sat in my new ride, i kept pondering on why do i love to buy unneccessary stuffs and use them only occassionally then throw them away. answer being my dad. so here it goes, today he decided to get himself a new pair of shoes when the week before, he got himself a new shoes. that moment, i quite know where i got this unusual habit of mine. till date, he owes close to 13 pair of shoes that is more than my mom and myself.

I inherited alot from this man. from the wide forehead,the nose,the thick brows, the ability to entertain people and whatnot.

i know i would always be my daddy's little girl,even when my brother tries hard to impress him all the time by making the bitter coffee(hes not suppose to take sugar) while i always make him the moderately sweet coffee. then together with the brothers, we would have coffee with banquette from delifrance. Now that mister valluvan had gotten a new ride, he never fails to send his girl to and fro to school.

sucha sugar-daddy.

stop denying,it makes you real upset when i dont talk about you/say about you most of the time
when i dont give you the attention,you feel indifferent. you dont say a word though you really wish you could have a say. it irks you when i'm just no bothering you. it annoys you that i keep cancelling on you.

it does. for sure.
you know angels do exist. you know it damn right,who yours is.
then why hide?

right,after much hesistation I'm back to blog.
changed the blogskin,cause the murder issue is really nice.
like The Black Dahlia.

the black screen keep calling me back,whenever i'm in the study.
knowing me,i can never resist the computer. i keep procastinating.
homework not done, supposed-revisions are never going to be done any soon.
never pre-planned,sadly. though,i have tests each week i still go out more often than i'm supposed to. Bah, i just cant sit and study anymore.

right,we got a new ride.
(if you guys are the one,whose been getting driven around,getting picked up by your folks this may be nothing intresting to you)
hopefully, to late morning and drive to school.

this is dedicated to man,who has always made my day unknowingly.

first of all,would be my father. i'm a daddy's girl. i'm a daddy's girl because,he always there to ask me how i was,called my mobile after every exams to check how i did,called me often to check on me when i stay hom alone,get me everything i wanted,listen to me each time i whined yet be very strict with me. although hes the workaholic he is, i always know that he would be there to protect the entire family against all odds. He would also be the man,who always taught me everything in life. From how to hold a pencil properly to advising about choosing the best boy for myself. Till today,he pampers me most than my two brothers. I get the advantage of my dad paying my bills, getting me the best handphone,paying all my expenses for my trip to australia each time just to see me happpy. I always loved the way,he always brought the entire family out every friday night for dinner. All this years and the years to come, I would get to meet more men but to me, you would always be the best.

you only could realise,how much your siblings or brothers for the matter of fact,loves you only through siege.

i swear brothers' love beats everything.
being the 'favourite one' of so many boys,just rocks.
&when they do really care,not pretend.

i really love my brown boys,all six of yourl.

dont deny that you dont bother. it matters that,your complexion is darker,your hair is a mess,your make up is off,when your tummy bulges out when you sit,when your thigh looks bigger,when you appear to be a fat arse. it seriously matters to you,when someone gives negative comments about yourselve. you pretend like it ever makes a difference,well it does.as much you pretend not to,you do care.

if these apply to you,then 'hello'. if you fit into these,then know the ugly truth about some.

This post is dedicated to someone,very dear to me.
Thanks for everything,you have done.
For all those money,you have spend on me. You always have given me the best.
From buying me expensive clothes to my new handphone.
You have always been the joker,that where i got my genes.
You would always be the shopa-holic father,i know. the vain one,if I must add.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA DOSE(okay,daddy)
eventhough you are 44,you are still looking good and young at heart.
well,i got most of my looks from you. therefore,if i look awesome now.
its all thanks to you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAAHIRA,DEAREST!

Cheers to the autosave draft system.
Now I dont have to type my post all over again,if my com fails upon me.

Happy Birthday Sindhu (((:

when you are just so shragged and think you are not going to get anyway.all you can think of is an,good ideal moment. oh well,thats atleast what i can think.Retail Theraphy,thats all I need. Grab,whatever I need and be the happiest thing.

How much I love social workers now and even more,if their adorable and just so convincing that I just gave 2 buckaroos willingly,not out of fear for once.Now,i gave 2 bucks for someone who was just so entertaing and had good looks.Just one social worker and his pretty boy looks is enough,to do this to me.

Whose needs a boyfriend,with girlfriends like such. This was like always caption for our pictures. Oh well, I still do need that drama boy.I always had the best picture,with these two lovelies. Its always for someone's birthday.Really weird friendship,once again. Its with them,I realise my bimbotic-self,camwhore-self ,bitchy-self and also meet the best and worst people (best: social worker, worse: singh,roxy guy). These two had alot because of me and my tendency to speak too loud.

right,i'm back.
sitting in comfort,all alone. morning rays running over me.
i should be in school now,ohwell i'm all in solitude now.

caught pirates of the caribean on friday.
it was goood watching a real goood movie with the boys after a good-long time.
its worth your eight bucks,honeys. A must-watch.
Jonny Dep,Orlando Blooom and Kiera Knightely was just wowza.

peninsular plaza is just my new craze,though its sounds/look like some Philippino hangout or whatnot. I swear,the shops that sells graphic print teees and band tees are just awesome. I went 'wow' seeeing all the teeees,would get them sooon. Afterall,i'm so broke this week. When i say broke,i mean i'm real broke.

how much we kids hate to be broke!


now that you know that angels do exist. i'm quite sure,you know who yours is.

right,i real need to change my skin cause it was like so dead.
Miss Scarlet was like my ever favourite muderer in Cluedo,so there goes.

after two days after pure partying,its back to that books,pencils,UGLY marks.
ugh,shitsu.
anyhow,i seem to be having great deals for holiday.
hopefully,aussieeee once more : D

i'm always the happiest kid in the family.
how i get my way and got the sexiest handphone.(if you're wondering,its W880i)
Marvel. Now,i'm getting the best deal to spend my holidays abroad for longer,this time. I might stay here or so,not too sure.

btw,being fifteeen rocked.
when you got the biggest gift and was given the best party!
when you have people showing how much they love you,only after you being fifteeen. i seriously dont understand why so.

School sucks.
I dread school.
I have a nice class,its just the workload and bunch of good 'close friends'

For whatsoever reason,it doesnt feel good to go school and returning home with a bag full of books to study and homework to complete.
I miss sec 2 alot.

I miss two-six.
I miss going over to gayathiri's table everyday to talk to her
I miss the stupid spot-checks.
I miss being a good girl and NOT using my handphone is class.
I miss singing songs with people around me
I miss my tablemate and his lifestory.
I miss my funny teachers.
I miss my ching-bang
I miss everything

Somewhat three-eight is intresting for a matter of fact,because the people who sit around me are awesome. Thanks,for the birthday wishes!

Being fifeteen thrills me alot,lets see how it goes.

right,i would make a quick update.

life is pretty chaotic for now.right that almost all the competitions ended pretty soon.Kudos,to the debate team!I would just update on the best event for the past few weeks.I wouldnt further elaborate.

Pursuit Of Happyness.
I love it,on how I tried to catch up with my social life now and then for the past few days.Watched Pursuit Of Happyness on one of the wednesdays after school.Good movie,it was good watching a movie after a long time.The father-son chemistry.

RI All Arts.
It was on friday. Cabbed down with shanky to RI,settle with Tkgians.Some school were exceptionally good and the others couldnt make it anywhere. 'Most boys cant dance for nuts' I'm not going to mention school's names here. Hah,they were entertaining actually.St Gabriel had one of the best dance.Impressive,how mister lingesh could dance well.

Bra-deh's Sixteen.
Bra-deh was not hyped for sixteen.Parents were more excited,to say.We went to Marina Mandrin for dinner,thats about it.Bra-deh was not like going to expect a drastic change after this year,or wait he might. the-O's! Well,the NC-16 part is just cleared,he had got into NC-16 when he was only 13,thanks to the height. I would have a more exciting sixteeen.

right,i am off.
bye,world!

right,i havent done well in this one week. its either that I have been out or I spend too much time doing on one subject itself. I thought i could use this holiday for revision or so. damn,all my lost. I somehow, spent it wisely.

tuesday was out with mister lingesh and later was with shankareeee.
all the emotional talk about our very own boys. its was real nice to connect with that woman,so much in common aye! wednesday and thursday stayed home and spent time with my little brother. friday evenings with my mister. saturday,caught few of the gabrielites perform at bugis. hah,awesome and then temple. today,stayed home to finish all the last minute work. prettty alright.

i wanted to watch 300 but look i can never since it M-18. right,looks like i got to get the cds instead.

so much in the name of love.
te amor eterna.

In admist of typing my essay,i felt compelled to blog.

I realized spending too much time in school,makes you socially ineptitude.
Oh boy,I dont stay back after school to lunch or hit the malls now. No more,15 and I'm so near losing my social life.On a much happier note, I was initially excited when sasee called me over for movie along with the others. But lets see how it goes cause,it has been long since we met.

Now,I shall sympathise with the debators.They slogged preparing and they lost,yesterday.However some people might condemn,I still they were very good for the fact it was their first time. One more round,all the best girls.

I came across blogs whining about their poor results.Try harder the next time,woman.Whereas for me,it was expected.For all the homeworks I copied,the revisions I failed to do,the tuitions I postponed,the weekend I waste sitting infront of the computer/tv.Somehow,I scored farely for some subjects.I know,i should be studying soon.

I practice being idel and lazy. I can teach you how but I have to charge.

I'm just praying that catching up on my sleep this next week will make me feel better. Good luck studying, all you muggers!

my nike street styler(i think,thats the name)

GET ME THIS& IWOULDLOVEYOU.

town with mother dearest. saw prettty stuff,so here goes my wishlist for 2thousand7

-denim skirts from bum
-off shoulders
-brown clutch bag
-belts(leather or snake skin)
-topshop accessories
-3 quarters
-printed tee-shirts
-long chains(either GOLD or RED)
-ipod nano
-FBTs
-my nike street stylers
-a jersey
-a shoulder bag
-that topshop top

hopefully i can get'em soon or atleast for my birthday : D
i want royce chocolates,badly.

toodles.

right,the mood to blog.
the previous weekend was goood with the new clique.
friday.saturday with them all and I was the happiest soul

right,i'm too dependant on a certain someone now.
its like,i cant do some stuff without him,nowadays.
oh,why? whenever i'm halfway through it,hes already there.
Bah,how now? i'm not like what i was.
you are like the pencil in my pencilcase;socks in my shoe;watch in my wrist and whatmore.

but he still cant follow on.
I still Y my mister 17.

vday was goood!
school was ultimatum,received chocolates from favourite girrrls.
then late lunch in pastamania with the screw-up guy!
thanks alot for the gift.
Sorry,am just fussy.

THANKS FOR THE
Ymajorlove.calls.hugs.wishes.roses

Friday:

movie with dearest boo,her boyfriend and lingeesh.
we all,wanted to watch ghost-rider but in the end only boo and pravin was able to watch the movie,while I and lingessh watched matrimony. dont ask why.

lingesh and I somehow enjoyed the movie more than those who understand the plot. lingesh struggled to read the subtitles while i was busy texting darlene,who was watching epic movie in causeway too.

hah,darlene and I screamed when we bummed into each other at causeway.
Lunched with lingesh,wating for pravindo and his girlfriend to finish the movie.
Then headed for dance.

babygirls camp over at myplace. I had a sleepless night as nirtha was a noisy bum and singing her nursery ryhmes over and over again. pfft and she slept finally.

SATURDAY:

temple in the morning with brother. back home! played with shastraaaa. vicknesh and arun joined us at my place later. laughed,carried the girrls,wrestle,
made the girrls cry. hah,nirtha being very intellectual for her age blurted this out,"why do we need brothers?" because they were really rough with her.

i said,we need brothers for money,security,love and so much more. we need boyfriends for the same reason,isnt it? hah,brothers never walk out of your life like boyfriends. treasure your brothers,even they have girlfriends already!

SUNDAY:

mundane! i woke up early after sleeeping at 3 am,thanks to mister screw-up guy and all the drama. Gooood experience,actually. Never talk to a guy who had played soccer for 4 hours for the day and is both hungry and weary.

little india for threading. i got adjusted to the pain. then hougang kfc for quick bite then home! I still have tons of homework to finish,so goodbye.

ares is working goood. finally,i can download my russel peters&prison break episodes.

alrighty,i need proper dinner now.
so offff.

I hate to be where hes not and when hes not
Yet again,I am going on.
He just cant follow on.

Hopeless Romantic

NIRTHA Y

what a day it was,yesterday.

unity faced off with acs barker in debate. we lost,but the debators were exceptionally goood.
taahira,jaysree,amalina,fiza was amazing with a capital A.
Not forgetting it,Happy Birthday Fiza!

oh, O level results.
Congrats Shankareee,super proud of you!
Rafflesian in the making,aye.
Bishan shall be our new meeting spots,sweet!
All the best to the other condidates.

If you did well,
Good job,party!

If you dint do well,
Work Harder for As. Dont fret

still in denial or lying in between happiness and dissapointment
if this was your best,dont brood.

i miss nirtha&shasta
i miss the big brother
i miss my lady love
i miss boo& vidthiya
i miss shankareee
i miss mister vicknesh

I wouldnt be able to stay here for very long,so a short one.

Fridaaay was indeed the day. After school,hit the town.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRAV!
the gabrielites,shankaree,vidithya,boovana spelt awesome with a capital A.
it was my first time,celebrating prav's birthday and it was with the clan.

Alright,now to my life! Sorry for the lack of coherence in thought.

-Now,now I'm getting a clearer idea of relationships. The extent someone could actually go to,make one believe that she has a hot boyfriend whose much smarter than other boyfriends. Spinning a tale about her dates and whatever her boyfriend does for her. Ohwell,silly girls and their love crap.

-Shopping Beckons. I'm just not making any effort to meet my girls and do shopping with them. sorrrry!

-I miss watching movies alredy. i miss the beeg black screen and the dark surroundings with nachos and a good company. Movie Beckons too.

hah,valentine day is coming.2thousand7 and its intresting events,lets see how it goes.

one of the best moods to blog.I'm sorry it would be short.
this week's gonna rock big shit,yo.

wednesday,meet arun.go orchard,get the welcome gift,night to welcome aunt.the aunts back from melbourne. woohoo : D

friday,its like my day with number 17! after dance,meeting the cousins with the aunt after ages our usual meeting. weeeee! ( i know i havent been this excited)
sorry,pardon my anxiety.

arun and I are like planning to get farewell gifts,for our people.we have decided the welcome gift and the farwell,we have another day out to do with it.

does anyone knows,where to customuize bracelets with pictures on em' ?

thats what i go to school for

back to the school building.the maroon skirts and pale-white tops.the morning bells.the canteen table.the coconut tree.the new canteen.the tamil teacher.the jing-bang.the crowd.the friends.

now,its a new class with some goodfriends. jared.darlene.farisa the best in 3/8 so far. I prolly dont miss 2/6 that much,because of these threee.But i still have a big problem with school now. Thick textbooks,homeworks,long curriculum,boring lessons,silly teachers,heavy bags I seriously hate school.Everyday is a long day ): if this carries on,i would be able to catch up with my social life only during the weekends.

TGIF and its nirthaa birthday bash tmr.For now,I shall brood over the long weekdays and yenjoy my weekends.

bye,world!

goobye 2006.hello 2007!

right,2007 is here.I dont really want the year to come so soon cause 2006 was a helluva new year for me.I dont think 2007 would be that goood,since it doesnt seem to have a good kick start.

Firstly,two of the best people are leaving to aussie to study.There would be prolly back only after 2 years,damn ): thats for the month of february.However,there are events that could eventually spice the whole of 2007 due to various relationship with people.They were prolly the one,whom I heard of barely now we are close.I wouldnt forget how they way,we clicked and the incidents that got us this close

Secondly,2007 would have more events compared to 2006.We got handful of birthdays to celebrate.Friendss and family,I promised I would throw you the best suprise.I would also get the best presents this year,hopefully.We have the cousins celebrating their 21st this year,so its more of partying for the month of july : D

Thirdly,the new company I have got : D Prolly,you made me happiest in 2006,the holidays,the short trips,the sneak outs,the short nights and the everythingelse.2007 would be even blissful with you.

that would sum up the best of 2006 for me and my lil promises for the year ahead.ohwell,I would forget the start of my newyear.It was all at hougang,met the gabrielites,vidthiya and boo. Talked,hunt for a gift for the gorgoeus,talked again.It was the first new year with the boy and the gang,loved it.

Anyways,Happy Sweet Sixteen Shankari : D